I didnt know it'll hurts so muchh . . .

Am back... I only got 1 thing to say... It really hurts soo much to see the one 1 loved soo much happier with some1 else... I dunno why i got this thing, tht i'll kill any guy whoever is with her and happen to get caught in my eyes..i dunno wat i'll do to him..seriously...Juz dun get caught in my eyes brO...And i can see her eye to eye bcoz i'll juz breakdown... Maybe when we were together i was slack, and spend too much time with my frens...Didnt know i'll really miss her.. Didnt know i cant live without her.... It juz effing hurts... No matter who comes into my life her name is tattooed in my heart no1 can erase itt...My eyes juz tears everytime i see her name, her profile, her fav song, her voice & anything about her... =(( * Benazir *

1 week of MADNESS!!!

Yea back bloggin... i didnt know why was i emoing for a bitch like her...haha..i regret..and i wont anymore..haha!!

Last week was madness..!!! Met my bff(ramzy), my gay partner sashir, my New-born sister thaslim and my all-timed loved sister Pavitra at vivo..went henderson wavess...then the next day it was private time with mr.roberts..And the following day we met mrs.black cat...haha!! funnness!!

Wed after session with 2 mrs.black cat... It was time to get worse..went to meet the dancers and frens...haha!! went thr had evveen more booozzee.. thx to habib, roy, benji, Vj & yoga..hahaa!! Bukit merah juz rockss..!! After tht habib, roy, maran & me..went touring ard the bukit merah, tiong bahru estate..hahah!! crazzyyy... After touring me and maran were soo tired but still we walked from tiong bahru to redhill...went to sleep at our 2nd home.. woke up at 6.15am...went home.. the moment i reached home got screwed by daddy..but i didnt show i was drunk i was like "dad i'm tired, later at night u can shout at me"... luckily he went to work early..phewww... my mum was nagging nagging... haha...i juz said 1 word "sorry" and went to sleeppp...woke up at 1.30pm...saw a few msges and missed calls..didnt bother calling bcoz i know wat they with proolly say..haha! so went down to NP.... Maran irritated me with his stupid "hi, bye" games..got slightly pissed..hahaha...met up with suren... And guess whoo i sawww!! The yr 1 hotstuff!! Waahhh i was likee soo happy and excited to see her..but i didnt show it off..hahhha...sat down with her and chatted with her for a while till suren came...Got on his bike...went to the court to play soccer... and F&*% my hamstring injury is back!! argh!! cant run nor shoot!! damn damn..i looked like a normal player..but i think i scored the best goal of the day.. I was a goal with messi written all over it..!! HAHAHA!! Maran attempted it..but he didnt score..haha!! After soccerr we chilled awhile..then headed home with P and kumaran..had a good chat with him abt our sch matterss...haha! many things happening ard...hahaha!! LLKK!! LOL!!! and PBSG!! LOL LOL!!!

And finally thaslim agreed to be my sister! HaiyO! took u sooooooooooOooo LoooOOooong!! HAHAHAHA!!!!! And my name has changed from ghaz dos santos to ghazzali NIZA!! HAAHHAH!!!!!!! Love the crazy Niza Siblings!! HAHA!! crazy girlss!! =))

And ILOVEMYCUZZINS! ASHRAF, JASEEMA & FAAZUL... =))

Karma

Finally after so long ... I have to say i love all my frens sooo much... Maran, Ramizah, Pavitra, Thaslim, Sashir, Muzzy... Without these ppl in my life.. They meant so much to me.. When i'm down they pull me up.. Money is not a matter between us.. We dun have any inner bad intentions.. We clear out things when it arises.. Really have to thank pavitra and ramizah foR telling me to leave her..but i didnt listen to you'll at first.. but then after tht very incident..i decided to leave her.. she's a big time b*tch.. Now i'm very happy... Wee soo many frens ehem ehemm... Someone neww... =)) she's soo awwww...words cant explain it...hahah!! ppl keep saying she not pretty nor cute , but the point is i dun care abt wat they think.. i think she cute & gorgeous.. hahaha!!!! No more NUH! No more Jurong East! No more Blk 327! The best is i dun need to waste my money anymore.. hahaah!!! Enough of everything.. I'm happy wit it now.. And i'm sure i'll make u regret losing a person like me.. Give me 3 yrs time.. Ur gonna regret big time b*tch... Now u might have fun with a guy who's much much older than me and u.. haha!! Anyways all the best for ur future with HIM...HAAhaha!! haVe fuN..!! *FULL-STOP*

Oh my god...wats wrong with Mr.Paris Hilton a.k.a Cristiano Ronaldo.. $474,000 a week and its still not enough for him..God can u please remove his legs..He's spoiling the whole soccer market..Wanting to be the best... A good example of a player who is good and is passionate abt soccer and not the money is Barca's No.10 Messi. He is a true player. He plays for passion and not money.. He has not spurred anything this 2 seasons.. He has been on top form beating Ronaldo in the Champs League Finals. I think Ronaldo should juz take the offer and move to the La Liga and pit his skills against the Silent Stars like Xavi, Iniesta, Rossi, Aguero & many more... Ronaldo will juz look like any other Veron, Alan Smith or Kleber in La Liga..hahaha!! Loser..

Change colours with the mood. . .

Wow finally after soo long i'm back.. hahah!! Had been having soo much of problems.. One problem ends and the other start.. Problems had been revolving around me for atleast 4 months.. Thought it would all come to and end. but it seems it will come to and end when i'm finally resting in peace..

Is loving someone so much our fault or the other person's fault? I cant find an answer to this qn.. how to get her to understand tht i love her soo much.. She's knows everything but acts like she doesn't know it... I kept my faith in myself, i kept coming back when i was pushed down again and again and again, till my frens had to tell me " U should juz move on, she's juz making use of ya". Well being a true lover i argued and never let the fault be on her.. Now tht things are quite clear among us.. I think she can make her decisions clear and make up her mind... eMO =((

AND THE BEST EVENT OF LAST WEEK WAS!! BARCELONA WINNING THE CHAMPS LEAGUE.. Even though i support Manu in EPL.. My Love since young was barcelona, bcoz of the way they play.. I cried at home when barca lost to Manu in last season champs league.. But this yr i knew it was barca's year and i wanted barca to win Manu.. The first 8 mins were a scare for barca as Manu came out banging on barca goal door, but Victor Valdez was never wanting to open the door.. After tht barca drew FIRST BLOOD.. Their first attack of the game and it ended up as a goal... It was purely due to vidic's poor defending and the central midfield of Manu.. Eto beat vidic like cutting a piece of cheesecake, carrick came flying in into eto but eto had released a grounder shot which hit Van der Sar's left elbow and had already entered the net.. I was screaming and shouting CATALANS !! my frens who were Manu faithfuls were giving me the "fuck off bitch" face...hahahaha!! but i juz couldn't care less.... After the first goal it was barceLona who ruled the game.. I was juz imagining if Dani Alves, marquez and abidal were there wat the score would have been.. As for barca the whole team was solid.. A few players were exceptional eg Gerard Pique, Xavi, Andreas Iniesta & Messi. Messi had been the better in the Ronaldo vs Messi battle. Messi had shown he was a true player as he didnt try to do everything by himself. Messi had the skills to dribble pass players but he decided to stick with barca's gameplan by passing it ard before gg for the kill.. A TRUE PLAYER... I think even Andreas Iniesta and Xavi are better than Ronaldo... Fergie got his tactics all wrong.. Why ronaldo a lone striker? Rooney of the left? A 4-2-4 ending to a game? Fergie had gotten his gameplan all wrong.. HAAHAA!!

After tht the next i puposely wore a barca jersey to sch...MAnu fans were not happy..but they had to agree the better team won and they cant argue on tht.. Slacking with frens could be the best thing ever ...but tht cant be life..how i wish money could juz flow in and i could juz be with my frens forever.. i cant afford to lose a fren who are close to me now.. and i really appreciate the person who came to meet me after soccer the other day..BOO!! hahahh... For now Maran, karthi, muzammil, mavin, pratheep, kisho, thaslim, (sister love) pavitra and ramizah cannot be lost... they are everything to me...even though i dun see every1 everyday...its been 2 days since i saw pavitra and ramizah and i feel as if it has been 2 years...really... The other special person in my life no need to mention bcoz she always number 1 now..

Yest i had a good time with her.. i called her ard 8.. she returned my call later.. her voice was still so deep..as she was still sleeping... She didnt go sch bcoz she was not feeling well..she came J.P to meet me..then we went to eat at banquet, bought my love famous amos then went to Posb to bank in her cheque.. We actually went to the wrong bank as we were supposed to go to DBS..haha!! but we did something good in Posb.. When we reached the counter the person said "If u wan immediate cash ,u've to go DBS, if u dun mind getting the cash on monday then u can put it in the box outside" , he looked at me as if she's gonna kill me bcoz i was the one insisted on queing hehe... She then decided to change her atm card to the newer 1.. And she juz had to put her nickname on it...hahah!! She thanked me for helping her change the card.. We then headed to Np to see my frens and she wanted to go to the lib to check out some stuff.. After lib juz as i was walking to ICS room..she didnt wanna go thr as she felt shy...hahaha!! bcoz of some icidents the previous week.. LOL!! then went to send her off at work...

came back to sch had soccEr timee.... Was so fun... hAd so muhc of fun doing my tricks... Got sandwiched by 2 people...the fall was quite badd...had to break the fall by rolling...if not would have twisted my ankle..haiz..friendly soccer also they wanna play so rough..i juz didnt want to be childish like them and play dirty..i used my trick to make a fool out of them.. it was soo easy to beat them..hahah!! but my team being the weaker team lost 2-1.. but we had soo much of courage to play against a team which could easily said as the best team thr... Its the Heart not the name or size of the player.. I love my yr 1 soccer players.. alot of potential in them... And the day is finallly coming to and end...as i was gonna head back home..

SHE called..saying wanna meet up..i juz cant say no..but i asked her to come to my place..as i was freaking tired...she came we spent some time together... She then took the bus ard 12am..and headed back home.. I really Love her so much... As i was walking back she texted " I miss u so much. " i was soo freaking happy and crazy...hahahah!!! Headed baCk home tried to use the comp for a while but i couldn't... Feel asleeppp.... zzzzzz.... see u guys in my dreamss...tc adioZ..

02-05-2009

First time blogging...Hope the soft side in you takes over now..

'Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves.'

It was juz a normal day, woke up at a usual timing which is ard 11am... she had texted me saying to meet her at 12... oh my..had to rush... i made her wait for almost 20 mins..but she wasn't angry at all...but she gave the "hmph" face...after a while okay already larr...for a while only all this action'ing'...haha..and i really love her.. After tht went to jurong east to check out the singapore special pasar malam...thr was 1 thing which caught my attention..thr was this guy..whom i think is very gifted and skillful..he was drawing a woman's face exact on paper juz with black and white coloured pencils..i was juz stunned when he started to draw..the small define details were so perfect tht if u were to paint the portrait and place it near the original u wouldn't see the difference other the the dimensions..LOL..And as i was walking to the bus stop.. I received a miss call from thaslim..and i was wondering why so as i brought my phone closer to my ears..i saw miss.ramizah walking towards me...and when i turned thasim was thr..i was like literaly OMG... she was shocked too...so we chatted...after some time it was time for 'her' to go to work...i sent her off and came back to the lib...i didnt know lib started checks for flu..it was like a mini-clinic kinda senario, ppl queing up...lol..so eventually after all the checks we entered the lib...AND the most unlucky part was tht i was having FLU...!! thx to shisha and RAMIZAH!!! had so much fun in lib...after library pavitra, ramizah,thaslim and me went to pavi's crib...had 'dinner' thr...the girls had fun with clothings...they were like " omg pavi this is soo nice, how come u dun wear this out??" for every 2-3 minss..!! had to bear with it..but i found someting better to do rather than to hear them whining..ManU's game was gg on...it was 1-0 when i switched to FChannel..juz after 10 mins of watching our asian WonderMan with 3 lungs scored and impressive goal to give manu the comfortable lead...It was thts to the mean machine rooney's pin point through pass...Manu won eventually i mean like how on earth can manu lose?? it now more confirmed tht manu are gonna win the title..after watching it was time to leave as Mr.Gopinath was coming back to his crib..so i left..went to meet 'her' near pavi houz..then we walked to 'her' houzz...slacked...hmmm...listened to songss..nice songs huh...then finally...it was 1am..i'm losing track of time when i'm with her... send her to her houz.. then took an express service number 520 back home... it was such a tiring and flu-full day...haiz...hope i recover from this flu by tml...dun wan ppl to think i'm having the swine flu, when i dun even eat pork.. GOD save us from these animalss...HAHAAA!! finaally we know the meanings of OINK...dammit they were trying to tell us not to eat them bcoz it was not good for us...but we(excludin me) humans are still eating it... Hope every1 gets well and the swine flu leaves asap... goNna knock off now...see Ya peePs tml aights..